hi my friends:
I really miss many of you who are reading this post, I know that in this season there are days and weeks that I might seem distant. It might seem that way but the Lord is pruning me in what seems like very small things that when put away for later seem like big things.
The Lord has been showing me that I need to let the holy spirit discipline me and guide me. I have noticed that he is developing diligence in the small things to prevent big problems. He is doing that with the daily things of living on earth, to teach me that if I don’t take care of the small things of life on earth, I won’t excel in doing ministry.
The title of this post was made to share how God has been developing my character…
The first thing I want to mention is that he is developing my diligence to his tasks by helping me to be a better student. For those who know me for not too long or for those who don’t know me that well, I tend to procrastinate when I find something challenging to do or when I find no interest in it. I specifically will be talking about how the Lord is truly developing my character by convicting me to not study based on how I feel about it. In other words, if I don’t feel in the mood to study I still need to study. If I feel as if it’s too much, or if I feel as if it’s going to take me forever to learn the first out of 10 concepts of each chapter, I still need to study.
Right now, studying Biblical Greek has been a true example of the process of “dying to self,” or in other words, choosing to ignore or not focus on pleasing ourselves, and another example is to not act on how we feel. It’s a lot of sacrifice to learn a new language, and when I get behind, there is so much more to learn that seems exhausting at times. It’s been a huge struggle where I need all the prayer possible!! I sometimes find it interesting to learn new greek concepts, rules, and words, but it doesn’t happen during every second of it, yet. I do believe that the Lord can give me grace to enjoy every second of it. I notice that if I don’t take time studying, I don’t seem to understand in order to enjoy it. We can all enjoy something more when we understand the process of it.
But it all takes time. In the process of “dying to self,” you can sometimes be given, in the current season, a heavier load to deal with as you overcome the process of “dying to self” in the last season. It’s all worth it though. Because we all need more growing in our character.
Hope this makes sense. Because we live in a world where the focus is so much on the self and on one’s feelings and pleasures, it’s hard to “die to self.” And I’m not completely against focusing on the self. I do believe God tells us to love ourselves too, in his ways. I believe we got to become aware of who we are and how we are feeling at each moment. But, awareness can also bring change if we choose to do so. If we are feeling something in the contrary to God’s goals, we must submit to him, choose to partner with him, and put aside how we feel.
It all pays off at the end. Even in the middle of the sttuggle, whatever the struggle might be, if we look at God, he can show us what he is trying to do!!!
PS: will add scriptures later on but this is it for now